PMS alert

Guys Guys Guys...

Women and PMS..
They go hand in hand just like man and PORN...
a woman who has PMS has the right to blame anyone she wishes and for anything that she thinks is not right...
be it the weather, the "everything that is not within our control"..
wow... woman are such peculiar creatures...

oh well, maybe that is why we are so attracted to them..
like man likes the thrill of finding out what exactly is on their mind..
and what exactly they are saying when they utter words..
it kind of keeps us on our toes...

if woman are so straightforward, then they will be just like any man out there..

what im getting at here is that, i think guys deserve to have a something like PMS...
cos we want the freedom to blame everything and be erratic and irrational..
and then after all that just blame our PMS...
and everyone will forgive us for whatever that had happen...

damn you lucky ladies for having the luxury of PMS..
PMS is like a wild card in life..

anyway, i kind of felt happy cos i manage to calm THE PMS lady.. ( Read as Tembamz in unpredictable Mood Swings)
and damn, was that an achievement...
Many pinches, hair pulls, punches and even a slap to the face... to make her calm down..
khekheke...
all in the name of mankind trying his beast to appease the PMS Demon...
but lets take it with a pinch of salt eh...
if there aint any PMS, then there aint Woman...
(but any guy with admit that PMS is such a Bitch)

so guys, muster up enough courage and slay that PMS dragon...
the battle will make us tougher and smarter..
and besides, the battle is a monthly affair too..
dont even think of woman experiencing menopause..
cos i've heard that the STILL experience PMS at the point of their life...
We're doomed guys.... DOOMED...

Ladies, pls dun get offended..
just a small slice of what a man has to say abt PMS..
kind of like the "his side of the story" thing... you know..

i want her attention...
i want her time...
i want to talk to her and ask her abt her day...
i want to tell her jokes..
i want to flirt with her...
i want to spend time with her..
i want so many things right now...

i want the strength to give her my fullest support..

i want too much i guess...

at last a pic of me in it.. cos i told them everytime im not in the pic...  

i shouted at them, made them sweat and swear.. and now they are bronze medallist.. they think i deserve a photo with them... khekhe.. 

No one wants to take pictures with me.. cos why.. cos i am the one taking the picture most of the time.. therefore i have alot of self photos.. me in the school jacket.. 

my pretty Tembamz.. 

my proud picture... one durian from the restricted area.. worth waking up at 8.. but we had such a hard time breaking it open.. and my was it delicious...one durian for me and fahmi.. 

and barely seconds after we walked below the tree... and after asking famhi what happens if the durian hits us, a durian came crashing down... thankfully, it didnt hit me.. here it is.. 

Beautiful durians... just outside my school.. and its free... yum yum.. 

i personalised the cover too... but the letters dropped off soon afterwards... the fabric paint couldnt adhere to the surface well enough.. if you know what i mean... nice kan?? 

Our Oily FAces.. I was drunk drinking too much green Tea... our small reception before our NACHO LIBRE movie.. damn i laughed so much that i weezed when i slept at night.. JACK BLACK my idol.. minus the Armpit hair.. 

I made this for Tembamz... she wanted a bottle on her table.. so i gave her a Nalgene Pink BOttle.. Personalised with her Title.. and the fabric paint glows in the dark tau.. coolness... 

oh yes oh yes...

I really must thank God..
Cos i gave me all during the paper..
i left early.. half hour early actually.. kkhekhe..

anyway... now im back in my room..
i think i want to sweep then mop my room..
i love a nice smelling and clean room..

my MOM's birthday is this saturday..
we are giving her a treat and small $$ token..
but im suppose to go shopping with Tembamz this saturday..
How?
i've yet to tell her abt it..

going to swensens later..
to treat the silat committee...
they deserve it..

Ridzwan, you're Sweet 'n' Sexy

Ridzwan, the emoticon that represents you best is the Devil Face

khekhekhe...
this tickle test makes me blush...

just a quick entry...
i've not yet finished reading my notes for 2moro's afternoon exams...

the last weekend was great..
2 gold medals... 1 silver and 5 bronze...
not bad for 17 athletes..

im proud of you TEAM...

"Will we ever give up?"
"No, We want Some More, We Want some More!"

i moved in on monday...
my beautiful airy level 1 single room..
and it smells nice..
and its huge too..

i felt weird and under the weather on sunday..
it got worse on monday..
slept alot on tuesday to recover..
and that leaves me for wednesday to study the remaining notes..

haiyah...
i'll give my bestest shot..

2moro's my exam and the swensen's treat i promised the Committee..
Time to get drunk and make merry...
hkeheehh...

Tembamz had been feeling down lately...
i pray that she will find strength in the job..

got to go now..
no time to waste...
127 more pages to go...

allo.. allo... allo...

here i am again in school and alone..
khekhek...
i really dont care im im alone or not lah..
just enjoying my new found bachelorhood (No, im still with Pretty Tembamz)
being alone in school..

been busy lately...
School.. Studies...
Silat... Tuition...
i think thats abt it...

exam is in 6 days time, and im panicking...
jialat beb...
i've read the notes abt 3 times through already..
then i tried the past paper..
abis, cannot do beb...
and back to the drawing board..
so now, i make notes..

i had to brainwash Nisa yesterday..
she's been feeling demoralised abt the o levels because she hates physics...
and brainwash her i did...
she's gonna give me her home timetable by 11pm tonight..
i will be her new daddy from now till O levels...
to ensure her Physics and Chem are tip top..

BO...
i was sitting in the bus the other day...
nice smelling air conditioned bus..
then this malay aunty sat next to me...
and wow did she stink man...
yucks...
everytime she lifts up her arm, the stench of foul smelling BO creaks and slaps my nostrils..
WFT...
thankfully, she left b4 the bus entered school..
go Away BO...

im at SAC now...
some really tired PRC fella is sleeping on the couch...
and, damn, is he really snoring loudly..
kind of affects my train of thoughts...
kehkhek...
but i decided to give him a break...
who knows, he was just back from night shift taxi driving last night...
then today got part time module to take...
but i must say his snores starts soft and slow...
gains momentum..
then hits the cresendo.. with a loud and purposeful snort...
thats what i call nature's symphony...

i dun know what came over me yesterday...
i woke up and ran... abt 5KM...
rest, study then tuition...
spent $10 on time crisis 2.. my sis used most of the credits...
then got home, eat...
before i know it, i was running again...
this time i ran the feeder bus route..
cos yishun park was too dark and scary at 10pm...

and now my entire body is aching...
damn, got abit too carried away huh...

and i think im fat...
cos why?
cos i had abrasions on my left thigh..
too much rubbing against the shorts...
must be becos my thighs are too fat...
and so i am FAT...

after this, study some more...
then meet the Head of bookings at SRC...
cos he wants to know why im booking the court for 3hours...
then silat... yeah!!!

mamak is here now..
gonna accompany him to eat...

yes....

i am all alone again...
hehehe...
but i have my newsweeks, my ipod shuffle and also my booger wooger to keep me company...

i had a really tiresome weekend...
friday was swensen's treat from tembamz...
she call me a "chi-ko-pek"...
cos i showed her how i smile at the girls in silat...
had a clumsy moment at suntec swensens...
i spilled the glass of water while squeezing the lemon in the glass..
but that bloody guy at the ice cream counter do not need to stare at me what..
make me so embarrassed only...
nevermind that...

i met an enemy on saturday...
he didnt know who i am...
but i know who you are...
and yes, the prey unsuspectingly talks to the predator....
thinking the predator is just one of them...
you wait boy...
my day will come..
When Thy shalt Pounce on Thou...
he even thinks im from nanyang poly...
wearing the NTU jersey didnt help him clear his myopic vision at all...

IVP...
Farah and Shedah won their matches...
Good job ladies..
Nisa lacks training, Shahed got abit carried away with sweeps...
Fauzy's legs were weak..

shedah lost in the semis..
50/50 situation...
khalid lost in the semis too...
i know he tried his best...

so farah and shikin are now in the finals...

one weekend left for IVP...
then i can go out with Tembamz every saturday...
yeah...

anyway, i was treated Swensen's again.. yesterday...
for my time training the Regu girls..
hehe..
1 topless 5 and half of the banana crumble...
we went to the pasar malam after that...
had a good chat with farah and shahed at the MRT chill ledge..

i have to settle down now...
my exam is in 10 days time..
no more play...
everyday study for 4 hours..
i think that should be enuff right..
but what the heck...
i can always get more hardcore than that...

going for my next class now...
2 hours of electricity safety...
hehe... so fun..
i LOve School... Alone... (SARCASM)

Another day of swiping these little rascals ass clean...
its all in a days worth of being an uncle to 2 hyper active delinquents...
i gave them milk, bathed them and put the pampers on..
officially an independent uncle...

i went to WLD library..
believe it or not, my 2 hours of solid studying turns out to be only 1 hours..
and i was already so saturated..
damn... and my exam is in 2 weeks time...
i ended up reading the encyclopedia.. People and Places...
for 2 hours... hehehe...

there were no Readers Digest left...
i think its the "in" book to read now...
so i end up paying my $10plus overdue fine to borrow books..
i borrow the full monty and didnt read it...
it was way way overdue...
and the charges was 9 bucks...
anyway, times, newsweek and wheels...
these will keep me occupied when im bored...

went to the pasar malam last night...
the usual things lah...
fake burger ramlees...
counterfeit products...
i bought colour pencils and 2 colouring books...
not for the 2 rascals...
but for myself...
i need to get in touch with my childhood...
i love colouring...
ultraman and mickey, here i come to color you guys...

hope to meet Tembamz today...
nisa cancelled her tuition...
so im just left with training at 6...

going to eat my well deserving breakfast now..
bubur ayam..
after all that work looking after the kids..

another pic... taken dec 04.. the long and incontrollable hair.. i think the hair can actually move on their own... and the classic Aviators.. i look like my "mata" uncle back in the 80s..  

my face was riddled with pimples 2 years ago... pic taken on 5/5/04... and my fanciful Tembamz...  

our meal at Sakura Yishun... United as a team...  

No one wants to be my Buddy

training was animalistic as usual for the stubborn fighters...

but i didnt train all the way... heheh...
cos TM do not need to..
more of me being afraid that i might aggravate my elbow injury..

and after training, we had the usual meal..
but sad thing for me, no one wanted to share a buddy meal with me at KFC..
i was kind of sad...
Lin agreed reluctantly...
then i start to ponder again.. (the insecure me)
do is it that my team does not want to share a Buddy meal with me?
am i losing my friends?
hmmm...
im kind of scared i end up with no friends...

anyway, after a night of thinking hard,
i finally rid the feeling that my tuition kid, nisa,
didnt like me..
nobidy likes the feeling that he is not effective...
i've been teaching her..
and recently she's been avoiding tuition with me...
but it turns out that she hates physics...
i did, however, ask her if im helping her with the tuition..
thankfully she said yes..

been feeling down lately...

i miss Tembamz like crazy..
and there's nothing i can do abt it...
except short chats on the phone every night...
and friday dinner cum date..
i feel that i want more of her..
but we cant work out anymore free time..
she's got her tuition and i'm starting school soon..
i hope we both can remain patient through this tough time..

im starting to panic...
have not been going for classes lately..
i guess its the worng attitude...
modules during holiday makes me "take it easy"ish...
i cant do that...
i need to fucking buck up...
the last special sem i took...
same attitude.. and i got a C...
im not going to let that happen again...

going to the library 2moro...
after my physio...
its my last session...
hopefully my last one...
my last painful physio...

2moro's plan...
physio..
meal alone at Novena Sq LJS...
study for 2 solid hours at WLD library...
then i will bury my nose into a good ol Readers Digest...
my english's atrocious...
hence my effort to read good shit...

my red hair... and raihan janggut..  

hot and sweaty me... and i dun even feel sexy... Team Manager without the R.. typo error.. but at least the school badge is in colour... 

found my jawi sheet in my file... such nice and neat handwriting.. i got a B for the module ok... khkhehke.. 

we and our blue white traditional tops... bloody hot and humid time there at NYP... my top was all smelly... khekhe.. but i bathed before we headed back to Alfiano capone's place... 

The confirmed medallist... guys - silver... ladies - bronze... good job... 

the athletes from NTU... with their "jemaah haji" tags.. khekhek... 

Job Well Done

congrats budak degils...
im very proud of everyone of you...
Rizman, Renee, Re-girls and Re-guys...

Each of everyone of you were superb and gave your best..
and as the Team Manager, i must say you made NTU proud..

Rizman got through to the finals..
Renee got fourth, a mere 3 points away from 3rd placing..
The nervous girls got Bronze... but frankly i thought the were the best team..
even Uncle Jamz said that.. YOU GIRLS ARE MY GOLD MEDALIST...
The guys were 2nd placed...

so todays tally, 1 silver 1 bronze...

2moro will be syahid and farah...
they will have to fight their way to their medals from the prelims..

we visited alfiano capone after the comp..
he's still in crutches...
hang in there ok bro...
thank goodness he is in high spirit...

i had a superb time with Tembamz yesterday...
it been hard to talk to her lately...
her busy schedule and all that work..
but at least i get to spent some time together with her...

internet conn had been bad lately..
cant even log on to MSN...
why ah?
i think all that world cup satellite activity is sapping my wireless conn...

i wonder how the team will react when i announce my desicion soon...
i cant do it, but i have to... my studies comes first...

eating evertop's chicken rice 2moro..
yum yums...
hainanese boneless chicken rice...
and its halal... give it a try ppl...
it at tanglin halt...

watching them compete today really make me want to compete again..
i really want to..
but my elbow needs time to recover...
what a pity...
all i can do now is train others...
but i miss the anxiety, the fear and the hardship we all go through when we are training for the competition...

maybe im a sadist...
but i think so lah..

the re-girls wanted to treat me topless 5 for their success...
hahaha... i told them that i get more satisfaction from asking them to run 2 rounds in 4 mins...
khekheke...
sadistic it is lah eh...

brilliant... simply brilliant...
both team held on well...
till extra time...

i was expecting the dreaded shootout...
but my oh my...
what a time to score...

and a second goal 2mins later??
thats unbelieveable..

i wanted german to win cos they are on home ground...
but composure and patience were the traits of the Azzuris...
my kudos to the italians...

and now Finally...
I can go to sleep...

the Teh Halia Gajah at Simpang Bedok really paid off in keeping me awake for this match..
well worth my time...

i think i will miss 2moro's match...
got class on thursday...
maybe lah...
the class is secondary...
the match is primary...
nites people..

staring into the horizon... still pondering... and feeling sad.. 

pondering... maybe abit too much...  

sad thoughts

i ran just now...
but for half the time, i wasnt happy...
i was sad...

it struck to me like lightning through my heart...
and i had nothing to hold on too...

i have many imperfections..
i do not want to call it defects... cos that may sound that im not thankful of what i have..

i am allegic to grass..
i am allegic to panadol..
i cant drink the blue and silver red bull..
i am partially colourblind..
and now i have 4 bolts in my right elbow...

there must be strong points that i possess..
something that will even out my imperfections..

then i start to think of my future children...
will they be like me, full of imperfections...

i remembered being laughed at by my friends and the nurses back in primary school..
when i couldnt make out the numbers in the colour blind test...
i remember being laughed at by friends when i told them i was allegic to panadol...
telling them that im allegic to grass draws much amusement too...

such amusement that some ppl i know belittle me cos it makes me less of a man...

Come on Fuckers...
i didnt ask for all these allegies..

maybe i played a part for my broken elbow...
but that too was an accident...
not that i didnt stick to "safety first"

i dun know...
this time round running was kind of a reflection of what i have and what i dont...

the serene and quiet scenery at yishun dam kind of make me more emotional...
thats the place i go when i have problems and think things out...

40 mins of running or sprinting???

i've been a bad boy...
a loser...
why?
cos i didnt run for the past few days...
i couldnt run on sunday cos i was up the whole night watching painful soccer...
couldnt wake up at all...
and today, it rained in the morning...
no chance to run...
all i could do was watch the rain...

next time i rains in the morning, i will skip for 20 mins...
if not more, cos i had been such a bad boy...

the dragon boat race was great...
you deserve my salutes, dragonboaters....
all those times at SRC training was well worth it...
we we tops in both men and women event...
and PM Lee was there to see NTU trounce NUS...
kehkheke...
and the NUS cheerers did the wrong thing by walking pass us and chanting their cheer...
khekhekhe...
try harder at jeering next time...

i was kind of cranky yesterday and today...
lack of sleep... guilt from not running...
the Fucking HEat... everything lah...

but i did get to know what caused my skin reaction...
believe it or not, i think it is caused by the blue and silver red bull...
damn, now that i come to think of it...
everytime i drink that, my skin will have those ugly, irritating and itchy clear border sweelings...
wow... one more thing added to the things i shouldnt consume...

been eating alot of durians lately...
one things for sure...
eat too much of that durian and your shit and urine will smell unnatural...
disgustingly unnatural...

Ngee Ann had upsetted everyone by being a pain in the ass...
first they boycotted the weigh in, now they want to be in IVP..
wow... unbelievable right...
nevermind, i will take it within my stride...

will be missing 2mors's training cos we have a meeting at Persisi..
no thanks to NP...
i could be in training, phyco-ing those animals... khekheke...
remember guys, keep that focus...

IVP will be on these 2 weekends...
meaning, i wont get to go out with TEmbamz...
i miss her already...
so long never date...
and i will not give in to the food feasts again...

cant wait to run again 2moro...
maybe i will run for 40mins at yishun pond..
fats fats, go away...
dont even come again another day...

pondering point of the day:
im already so full of deficiencies...
there must be something special abt me...

Anyway...
Thank you GOD...
for opening my heart...
I feel better already...

I've watched it so many times...
and i always cry towards the end..
its such a happy ending...
REMEMBER THE TITANS...

how i wish i can lead the team the way it was in the movie..
they potrayed such strong team spirit...
they are hungry for success..
they came a long way...

i did my 40min running this morning...
i was just running and running and running...
thank goodness i had my iPod Shuffle to keep me company..
so boring... i didnt even know where i was running to..
didnt meet anyone to comment during my run..

but i did get some stares from ppl on the bus..
while i was crossing the road..
i was wearing a Topper Jacket(so more fluid loss)...
and red shorts...
i gues they must be thinking im Crazy..
running in the hot sun with jacket...
whatever lah..

i wonder if eating durian will hinder my weightloss...
only one way to find out...
nevermind, i ate a whole durain already...
will only check my weight on fri...

why i love running:
1) running gives me a peace of mind
2) Running keeps me fit
3) Running can make me smile and then angry and then smile again
4) Running is my way to expression love to myself
5) running ensures my youthfulness (aka HORNY-ness)
6) Running is a way to show off my expensive asics Shoes
7) Running running keeps me Humble

My Sexy HOT Date

oh sizzle...

so best... i felt that i've not met tembamz for so long...
this love emotion thing can really twist your perception of time..
but overall, i had a wonderful time together...
we are such a considerate couple... hehhe...

Tembamz the devil...
Why?
Cos she gave me one hell of a tongue lashing last night abt me putting on weight
and today she said she want to have a feast...
and so i was at pizza hut telling myself that i can only eat the salad...
YUCKS...
pls... how to resist the temptation of cheezy lava...
and so in my heart i said," Fuck it Wan, Eat that Pizza."
and i Did...
but i must say i did feel a tinge of guilt towards the end of my second slice...
its like the cheese was affecting my emotions...
whatever...

i didnt curse the hill today...
the hill punished me for that...
i was left saliva-less after the gut wrenching 8x up the 200 steep slope..

todays fashion at the park:
mid 40s uncle - wearing a short sleeve shirt, 2 top buttons unbuttoned, bermudas and NS running shoes...
WOW right?
i did manage to smile while i glanced at him..
but he didnt give any 2 shit abt me..

argentina vs Germany
i wanted the germans to win..
but they played like shit...
first half so bloody boring...
second half... argentina coach made a wrong decision..
took out the striker and midfielder...
to help cover the 2nd choice keeper..
germany scored and argentina was left toothless...
everyone hates penalties...
but germany had home soil advantage...

2moro, more running... to burn my initial fats..
and the fats from today's couple's delight at PIzza Hut...