my sweet tembamz...

what an insecure girlfriend...

im sorry if i've made you feel insecure...

but i am happy with you...

and the reason i am so happy now is because everything is going so well...

we had such a great time on saturday..

and i am happy that things went that way..

after all the obstacles we had to face and overcome...

if i do miss out telling you that i enjoyed every moment i spend with you, pls forgive me..

however, that doesnt mean i am not happy with you...

i will make it a point to show you in other ways too..

you are my sweet and beautiful girlfriend...

and it is my part to play to ensure that you know imreally happy with you...

let time convince you more how happy i am to be with you...

im sorry tembamz...

just happy.. 

wow... i've never been happier...

been alert during lectures...
understand my tutorials...
been going for training...

(but not losing weight lah)

anyway,
happy reason number 1:
a guy at the One Corner asked me if i go for facials..
he thinks i got good radiant skin..
YAHOO!!!!
(but ladies, i seriously do not go for facials.. just God's gift)

Happy reason number 2:
Dillah asked me, after training, if i've been eating proper meals recently..
she said i look slimmer now...
YAHOO!!!
after a talk we had about she asking me why i wear tight tshirts if im not slim..
and now she said i look slimmer!!!

anyway, i did a test just now..
suppose to choose a type of cake out of many cakes...
i chose brownie...
this is the comment...

BROWNIES... You are adventurous, love new ideas, are a champion of under dogs and a slayer of dragons. When tempers flare up, you whip out your sabre. You are always the oddball with a unique sense of humor and direction. You tend to be very loyal.

maybe true lah eh... khekhe.. you decide..

i feel much happier now...
cos i manage to find time around training..
khekhe.. i get to train.. yessa...

and the doctor gave me the green light to start training...
YAHOO!!!

im so used to training and studying..
that if you take away training, i cant study properly...

ok... i've got to do 5 tutorials today..
one down already...
ciao...

lastly the tudung girls... khekhe... the one on the left kind of really attractive... so cute... i think i'll ask for her number after training next week lah... a hint of cleavage visible from the girl on the right... and the saboh-eh girl in the center..  

Part 2... khekhekhe... water and menthol powder can really make you damn well cold.. and your silat uniform from black to white... khekhke...we had to make her roll on the floor.. khekkhe.. thats her problem...  

Shedah's Bday cake.. they celebrated it just outside my room.. we all had time to kill before training.. this is part 1... sa-boh comes in part 2... 

a pic with the malaysian ambassadors.. they did a dance number... some folk dance that i do not know of.. and yes zapin.. they were really shocked that we did silat to linkin park... khekhe... too much for them to handle lah eh.. 

Another performance at NIE this time round... for the malaysian Ambassadors... khekhe.. dun look good here... its the cheeeks lah.. too chubby.. so extra... 

Our performance for Heritage walk... i think i look good here.. but no one will agree lah... cos WAN never deserve a compliment right?!.. urgh... 

a cloud shot... i think i like looking at the clouds... and how they change shape with time.. so calming..  

so while driving to kill time, i found a kampung off BUangkok... and there are actually people living there seh... like kampung in mainland SG... so hard to find.. look at the big shady trees.. it felt like Ubin.. rustic.. 

i had 1.5 hours to kill driving from yishun to pick up tembamz at sengkang.. so what did i do, i drove to places i've never been before.. i found this road at lentor.. it looks so serene.. like road and nature as one.. 

another one of the fireworks... this one is nice... fireworks is like the melody played by and orchestra... every section will play a part to make the whole melody alive.. just like fireworks.. if one only, not nice... must many many then it will look nice.. 

kind of late to post this photo lah... but what the heck... i tool this pic on national day from kallang riverside park... so disappointing lah the duration of this year's fireworks.. i expected it to be longer... 

yucks...

im at the library now... and the aircon draft is blowing me some really really PUNGENT body odour...

bloody hell....

pls lah ppl... God gave humans the intelligence to invent deodorants... and by not using them, yuo are going against God...

going through 3 hours of online lectures here, does not help either... it seems that this stinky person is lingering somewhere near me... and yet i cant identify him... i just have to stare at this stinking person and size him (or her) up... give him the"you stink like garbage" look...

anyway, i was doing one of my favourite pastime just now... (Shitting actually)... and i must say, i dont know what i did, but the toilet seat broke...

i thot the seats are made to withstand a certain degree of stress before failure... damn...
thankfully, being a martial arts exponent, i manage to maintain my shitting stance and carry on with my normal activities in the cubicle...

its been so long since i ran... i thnk abt 2 weeks...

and so i ran yesterday, before training...
running was fine... 6 laps plus one lap of punching and kicking...(outer lane, mind you)

but when i was finally in the training itself...
wow, i got a bloddy rude shock... I AM NO LONGER FIT...
i couldnt do 20 pushups straight( cos the doctor told me not to do pushups for the time being, but i did it anyway during training)
i cant punch and shout out numbers at the same time...
i was mostly breatheless...

damn... and now i have nothing to feel good abt...
urghhhhh....

the run and the breathless training kind of leave my body aching today...
but i love this feeling...
kind of tell me that getting fit is not easy... khekhekhe...

i will not be logging on anytime soon...
cos i figure the internet in HALL is like TV in my live...
Stealing my precious time away... little by little...
so yah... no internet till i deserve it...

hello ppl...

been quite awhile since i blogged...

been busy lah... some bummer driving instructor crashed his vios into my dad's car on tuesday..
but thankfully he settled things nice and complete... its all repaired and paid for now...

and i didnt expect my father to take things coolly when i broke the news abt the accident...
he was away at sri lanka for work.. 1 week there...

i had performance on thursday...
the crowd was really impressed...
khekheke...

maybe got another performance this coming thursday... for malaysian delegates..

anyway, i've already done some sort of a diary...

signed up for an interviewing skills workshop.. and another one, resume writing...
will need these skills when i apply for attachment later next year..

i thot of running tonight..
but on second thot, i think i'll just bathe, pack my stuffs and sleep lah..
no mood lately...

ok, maybe i do some pushups and sit-ups to make up for the running..

will be going cycling with tembamz this saturday... yahoo...

and i finally got back my LAb and electricity results...
got a B+ and C respectively...
the C kind of really dampened my strive for excellence... damn..

will be doing my tutorials this week...
i think i'll stay in school till at least 10pm lah...
everyday...
want to re-live the times i always stay in school...

what a great night driving...

driving tembamz back in almost all clear traffic...
bitching about the stupid drivers who dared to drive slow in the right lane..
khekhkhe...
a few high beams and we are on our way...

i tried clocking half hour over the 30plus km route from tamp to NTU..
the roadworks at paya lebar slowed speed down to abt 30km/hr...
yucks...
only managed a 35 mins to hostel...
was whizzing at a cool speed of 100...
(cant bear the consequences of speeding)
and was greeted by a sneaky TP shooting his radar gun over his sleek white REX...

thankfully was already slowing down..
and i gave him a cheeky smile..
cos i felt good sticking to the speed limit..
khehkehke...

anyway, thats one of the boring driving stories that lighted up my day..
nothing much other than 1 tutorial on heat transfer today..

2moro will feel like eternity...
got 7 hour straight lessons..
looks like the gardenia banana walnut loaf will be my best friend and lunch mate 2moro...
ouch...

hello ppl..

im back.. from malaysia...
been a busy week last week...
Recruitment fair.. and welcome tea coming up too..
not busy with the planning...
more of like the duties...
khekhekhe...

anyway, i must say that i really enjoyed training...
so fun training..
the agony, the cursing, the pain..
i miss all those feelings...

so many ppl said im fat now..
well, i really cant figure out whats wrong..
nevermind...

im finally settling down with my timetable..
not too bad..
but the yr 3 modules do look challeging..
too early to say lah eh...
i think i will come down for training once a week lah...
every tuesday can lah...
i need to let go some steam...

will miss the team if i dun...
studying is boring...
in a sense that, there will be no interesting stuffs to mention...

just lectures, lecturers and sweet ol engineering jokes that the rest of the world do not understand... khekhekhe...

anyway, i was outside my room just now..
saw a PRC lady argueing on the phone..
she was explaining herself in mandarin..
maybe the BF was wondering why she didnt answer his calls...
hmm...
the uncertainty and testing period of long distance relationship..

and having so many new ppl around wont help either..
nevermind.. im fine with that now..
notthat im affected...

got to list the things i wanna do 2moro..
i must be systematic and constructive...
i must...
now is my chance to prove myself..
after 1 semester of missing in action...

i got to wallow in the private pool at malaysia..
so best...
my family was still in the pool till midnight...
we came up with our own telematches..
khekhe..
and i will not lose without cheating...never...
get to dunk my aunties and sister...

shoot the water gun straight into their ears and eyes...
yessa...
but i was a victim too...
whatever lah... no fun in being a nice guy...

the sun after the shower...

finally, the rain had cleared up...
we manage to find an umbrella in the rain..
we did get wet though..

but our clothes are fast drying up...
and we even get to see the rainbow after the rain...

love can never be more exciting..
I love you Tembamz...

Lonely

i'm in a dilemma...

how to get the attention of someone thats always tired..
if i talk on the phone, the person will not be actively involved in the conversation...
if i tell the person to sleep, i wont get to talk to the person at all..

so what shall i do?
i need someone to talk to..
im still finding ways to work around the problem..
but still no efffective solution yet...

all i can say is that im feeling alone and lost...
i cant go on like this..
till when? sch holidays?
then what am i to do from now till then?
just go crazy?

i need to communicate...
i want to feel the bond..
fuck everything else..
all i want is you...

My Sadness

I really wanted that spot for the Asean University Games.

when i was told that they will select only the champions, i let go of the hope..

cos i had broken my elbow and cannot even train for the IVP...

and now they told me that they will be selecting athletes who can commit to the training schedule..

even if i had recovered enough, i cannot commit to their training regime.. cos i have 8 core modules this coming semester... 26 Academic Units in total..

i will not be able to participate for the next AUG cos i will be held in 2008 after i graduated..

i will be stepping down next week..

after announcing my withdrawal from silat, i took a moment to reflect...

i went from number one to zero...

from pres to inactive member...

everything i love will be taken away from me...

my love for training...

my desire to represent our nation...

my desire to compete...

all in the name of education..

i really want to train with them...

but it comes with phobia.. cos i broke my elbow during training..

my leadership stint will be ending soon..

i've did what i could...

its now up to the new blood to make us rise higher...

my committee had been superb in supporting me and my ideas...

i can never thank them enough..

i wonder if the team will miss me...

we'll...

my AUG dream, within reach but un-grasp-able...

our ECP cycling and beach chill trip.. i cycled till my ass still hurts now.. and the beach soccer was more of like silat on sand... judo slams, vulgarities, unnecessary rough play and the essential UNfair play.. my team lost.. damn.. 

in the middle of the road... i love the clouds...  

i was walking at bedok interchange... and look how the filth of liquor had infected even the core of our society.. by advertising glamourously their beer... i was supprise abt this, cos this int is packed with schoolkids everyday... come on beer ads, dun send the wrong idea to the kids... even i was tempted looking at the cool beer (cos i was damn thirsty and its bloody hot) 

The YEar of the PIG... natural(i so am lah), Sturdy(but i just broke my arm), Galant(i dont know what this means), Gregarious(Sounds like the gregorian CD that i heard over the radio), Scrupulous(i think i am leaning more of the UNscrupulous side), calm(not all the time, but when i matters most), diligent(maybe its true lah, when i come to think abt studying for exams and running), resolute(should i work for UN now?) and committed(how true). A selfless and compassionate worker in the service of mankind(i think all the superheroes are born in the year of the pig, come fans, get my autographs now before i become a superhero too)..