the time has come,
for me to learn how to move on,
i'm feeling so afraid,
cos this is my first time moving on,
i had learnt a hard lesson,
that life is full of challenges,
but i'm going to take this in my stride,
and emerge as a stronger person,
the wounds will take a long time to heal,
so would my trust for ladies,
but this I'm sure,
God will lead me to something better,
every prayer,
I pray for strength ,
I pray to be fairly treated,
I pray for patience,
and I pray for God to guide me out of this painful period.

I'm learning how to lead my life alone,
cos all that I used to have are now merely memories.
I do cherish the memories,
and I forgive her for the times she hurt me.
Cos in this world,
nothing is for sure and permanent.

Maybe this is part of growing up.

Moving on, for the first time...

"Flames to dust,
Lovers to friends,
Why do all good things come to an end."
Nelly Furtado

" They say we're too young,
to get ourselves sprung,
oh we didnt care,
we made it very clear,
and they also said,
we cant last together.

Oh Im with my girl,
who I thought was my world,
It came out to be,
that she wasnt the girl for me.

and now we're fighting,
Please tell me why,
...,
and i dont know,
how to make it better."
Beautiful Girls

The deeper your love,
the harder you fall.

Things just cant be worked out anymore.
Why do I deserve this?
There's so much emotions in me.

I loved her, I adored her, I cared for her, I wanted her.
This is not some crush that I had for a girl I just knew.
This was the girl that I was together with for 7 years.

I wish we could last forever.
And thats what I've been working hard for.
For my future with her.

I tried so hard.
I really tried all I could.
I cant hope anymore.
All is lost.
I'm in this alone.
There's no more looking back from here.
This is such a painful experience.

life had been in the pits..
my world had crumbled into pieces.. a million pieces..
i shared so much memories with her...
and now, they remain as memories...
cos there is no future to talk about or plan for..
she ended it...
i gave her all my committmence...
i assured her all i could...
but it wasnt enough...
she says i lack stability and security...
life is so unfair...
we are so close to our future together...
yet, at the last 10m of the 100m sprint, she gave up...
she turned her back on me...
i was there for her all these while...
i took her back when she made mistakes...
cos i trust that she's the one for me...
now all is lost...
now, i'm painfully picking up the pieces...
one by one...
i've lost all my sense of self worth...
how could the girl i loved so deeply for 7 yrs, leave me...