Im Down With fever....

wow.... what a fucking week i had...

I had my maths test on monday... so fucking scary... its a CA but its 1 hour long and is 100marks... 30% weightage... fucking hell... thank goodness, i could solve the questions.. but ti think i had the t-shifting question wrong somewhere...

had my extra training on tuesday... my knees are swollen thanks to the training... but hey, no pain no gain...

Mr Raihan could not join us for any more training for at least 3 months... his knees went bust again... thanks to soccer.. Take good care marn.. you are a fierce fighter... we want you back...

wednesday was a day i spent doing my kinematics... bloody hell... my brain was so saturated... so many gears in my mind... all that contact ratio, angular speed, teeth module.. oh man... i could really feel that i'm gonna get sick...

Thursday was the kinematics test... i pounced on the questions... i think i'll be getting full marks for it... so proud that i didnt copy for any test this semester... khekhek... had my silat training again... haiyah... selection was done... thankfully everything went well...

friday... the day that i was so looking forward to... was so happy that i finally get to watch a movie with little miss tembamz... i woke up with a sore throat.. but i went away after i missed my thermo tutorial... ok... then when i was going for prayers, i felt so bloody tired.... dun know why... and then i started sweating and all.... it was an aircon bus, and i felt so hot... i thot that maybe it could be satan trying to stop me from going to prayers... i pushed on...

then when i got back, i still feel so hot... so we went to the library... so that i could cool down.... and i waited for my beautiful tembamz...

so happy that finally i will be going for a date... she looks so pretty...

but i still feel so tired... even on the bus... and on the mrt... and when i walked to buy the tickets... i was thinking that maybe, i was tired from everything.. didnt occur to me that i had fever... all i wanted was to just lie down and rest... i couldnt bear with it anymore...

after much discussion, Tembamz sent me home in a taxi and accompanied me to the doctor (very sweet of you sweetie.. i appreciate everything... thank you...) and of course, the doctor was giving me the cock and bull shit that the weather is bad... yah yah... cost me $32... so fucking much... but i really need the medicine... haiyah... if only the school doctor was open at night...

i was so angry at myself... had to spoil the date that i was so looking forward to... had to disappoint my girl and cancel the movie... had wasted so much money on everything... $15 for the taxi, $32 on the doctor crap, $9.50 on the movie that we didnt watch cos i was sick... i dont know... i feel so shitty...

but at least the doctor told me that fever make you feel damn shitty...

now im at home, more of like under house arrest... haiyah... i didnt do any tuition today... too sick... there goes $84... will not be going to Wan's BBQ... so sad... and i am so tired... all i did was eat, take medicine, shit, sleep... and the cycle goes on again...

but i feel better now than yesterday... was so so shivering when i washed my feet and hands last night... slept with the sweater and socks on... no fans pls... and then in the middle of the night, i got so hot... started taking off my sweater and on-ed the fan... haiyah...

i need to sleep now... the medicine is really getting into my head...

Laplace

i am so fucking sick of maths... laplace especially... haiyah... one tutorial and 15 questions of it... took me 2.5hrs... this maths shit better be worth my fucking time...

i am so fucking full now... so bloody fucking full.. i did my tutorial... 2 more to go.. and i need to complete it tonight b4 11pm if possible.. cos i want to watch the chelsea arsenal match.... then i got hungry... so i walked to the nearest canteen... the malay stall was close... ok.. so i walked to the other end of school, to macdonald's... and then after my 15mins walk, its closed... what disppointment marn.. hungry man is an angry man right... so i was so frustrated... all that effort and panting to get there was for nothing...

i had to take the bus to buy some d'cakes half spring chicken rice... and now sfter gobbling down the food... i feel so full... i feel like a pig...

im really so sick of maths... the weather is really making me all sleepy and unenergetic... haiyah...

now i need to pounce ON TUTORIAL 2... 20 QUESTIONS... HAIYAH.... haiyah... fucking sick....

But at least all my anal menses is gone... yeah... 2 cans of jia jia herbal tea and 2 cans of barley did the job... yeah... cant wait to go out with tembamz this friday... maybe i'll get my swensen's topless 5 treat.... YEAH....

i miss hall... staying at mamak sagaff's hall tonight... cos i needed the help in maths... but hall is expensive... i'll have to work out with my father about expenses if i wanna stay hall... got to study now...

Fucking Laplace....

what i want

Whiskey's
Addendum
Never
Kills

for seven days i've not touched you bro,
for seven days i was busy so,
when i really want it,
some other things will make me forget it,
in a way it is good,
but in another way,
it makes me so fucking crude...

some poem i thought of when i was bathing...

go figure it out...

Whiskey
Alpha
November
Kilo

my fucking worries....

what the hell... the days had been getting better... but one thing is still on my mind... its about my anus and its shits....

fuck man... im been shitting blood lately... i was so fucking worried when i first saw it... could it be my piles coming back again??? but cannot be... cos my stool is not hard... and i have no problem shitting... no need to force my shit out... they just gladfully glide out of my rectum... it is so easy shitting...

but now there is blood... i dont know why... i dont feel pain when i shit... so cannot be an abrasion on the skin of my anus...

and i have no constipation...

i dun know... most of my friends, my parents too, say that my body is heaty... what the hell... and so i downed 2 cans of JIA JIA HERBAL TEA... fuck... that shit really tastes like shit... well, i cant complain much if my shit has blood right... i know this jia jia herbal shit will lower the heatiness of my body...

it really feels weird when you shit and you see blood... i kind of feel like a woman... like a virgin first time menses thing going on... hahaha... but its not that funny when i went through it on early thursday morning... about 2am...

i felt so dun know how to feel lah... haiyah...

i hope this blood thing goes away...

bye bye blood in my shit....


anyway let me quote a few words from my friend i met on the way home....

"
if one girlfriend give you problem, then you find another girlfriend.
if both girlfriends give you problems, then find a third one.
if the 3 of them give you problems, then go find a fouth one.
if all give problem, then break up with all of them, then find another 4 girlfriends....
"

khekhehke... he's really playing with fire... but we broke into a jovial laugh... khekhehke... its just funny... one girlfriend already cannot handle... how to go for 4 at one go??? crazy bastard... khekhekhe

fucking moody...

what a fucking fuctup day i had... bloody hell... im so frustrated at myself... i did NOTHING today...

i already have so many things to do... and so little time for everyhing... and yet... i still didnt get to do anything today... haiyah... i feel so fucking fuctup... like my life is in a fucking mess... im so fucking overwhelmed... fucking hell.. i need a fucking break... but i cant... cos everything is urgent...

im going to have my maths 4 quiz on monday... on laplace... fuck... and im so fucking lost in it... i need to really mug this fucking weekend... and having my performance trainings 2moro and my cousin's engagement on saturday will not be much help too... fucking hell... on top of that i still have my tuition on saturday and sunday...

and today i spent the whole day having a meal at NIE and helping Tembamz out with her Poshie... so frustrating... i know how she feel... maybei felt even worse when i couldnt get into the network... she looks so composed... but she was really taking her time... not her fault... everything else fuckes up my day... at least i get to check her out in the red dress (fabulous)....

i wanted to do my Manufacturing tutorial... but got no time for that... then i was time to go JP to buy the uniform for this new member... fucking hell... i only had time for that...not even time to do anything else... then, its time for the performance training at six... so tired, so moody, so frustrated...

i didnt have enough sleep cos of the bllody johor trip last night... cos of that i miss my thermo lecture... fucking hell... what the fuck am i doing with my fucking life... i feel as though i am fucking slacking... i really need to study... really really need to...

the chairperson thing is also not doing much help... so many things to think about and worry... we almost had no training ground today... no thanks to SRC fucking up our training.. bloody hell... how the fuck do they expect us to train 30 members within the space of 2 table tennis tables... fucking no brains...

haiyah... what a bloody fucking fuctup day...

The lizard and beggars...

just for your info... the title does not imply that i will blog about some fairytale shit about the 3 characters... this is some serious fucks here... ok, maybe the lizard thing is not very serious lah...

LIZARD... i was taking off my top in the kitchen... wanted to put it into the laundry basket... and then when i looked up, i saw a lizard... maybe it is about a few months old... nearly reaching adulthood(judging from its size)... the cute lizard was on the store room's door... acting cool like a spriderman doing his thing... haha... then i gave the fucking door a good knock... hahah... and i saw a spectacular fall perform by the lizard... from the top of the door onto the floor... WOW... even without a parachute, i managed to survive...

and to make the situation more fun, i decided to tickle the lizard... haha.. and so it ran and stopped... and ran and stopped... and ran and stopped... hahha... i had so much fun tickling it.. and see it breathing hard... khekhe.. like a 100m sprint every few seconds... khekhehe... i was enjoying it so much that i became fond of the cute lizard... gave it about 10s of rest and off it goes again... to do its run and stop motion... khekhe... then my MOM came ito the kitchen...

and the lizard got scared and tried to run away... my MOM told me to catch it and get it out of the house (see said it cool-ly, cos she ain't scared of this lizard shit marn)... and so i had to catch it and throw it out of my 5th floor window... the end... i hope the lizard survived the fall.. dun worry, i threw it far enough that there is a very high possibility it will land on the grass....

now the beggars....

i went johor... and there was a beggar there on the floor.. in the underpass... she looked so POOR THING... really... this sight is one of the things that can make me go so soft... seriously... it just invokes alot of strong emotions from me... hard to explain... but let me continue... she was crutching a baby... and the baby was crying... made things more sad right... but i had not single Malaysian ringgit with me... so i just looked and walked past... such a sad sight...

then i past another beggar... one hand missing and with 3 children next to him.. then i felt another strong emotion... why are beggars BEGGARS? why do people become beggars??? is it cos they are forced to by circumstances? or are they lazy to my their way through or is it an easy way out to earn $$$???

and why do beggars have many children???

lets analyse this slowly... there are many reasons why they have many children... and im thinking about this becos if i am the beggar, i will know that children are high startup cost.. so less children means less money spend on then... more $$$ to improve the life of poverty...

they may have many children cos, they a) intentionally cum inside when having intercourse, in the intense heat of passion (beggars are still humans with sex drive, i respect that), b)unintentionally cum inside when having intercourse (shit happens), c) cums outside but the sperms in the seminal fluid manage to get the lady pregnant (worse shit happens too, tough luck) d) want to sell the kids off to childless couples, e) have the desired effect of effectively connecting to the emotion of pity of the commoners like me, who look at them in such sense of pity and loss and helplessness...

i dun know... there are so many ideas... but i dun know whether they are genuine beggars or ppl who are just so fucking lazy to get jobs or too choosy when getting jobs... i let it to them, cos ultimately, if they cheat me, they'll burn in hell.... khekhehk...

anway, who am i to judge.... just some views i have... i think too much marn...

Eye Virus

people who cares, pls beware...

there is an eye virus going around now... be careful... first it affects the eyes... your eyes become red... you may mistake this shit for some sore eyes crap... you know the sore eyes thingy... when your either one of, or worse, both eyes become red...

but the craftful doctor will tell you that there is an epidemic of this EYE VIRUS... WOW.... whatever... there is no way that i wont believe the doctor... hey, come on man, the doctor knows best... and im not a fucking doctor to know my body even better than the school doctor... khekhek...

then the "sore eyes" thing will spread to the nose... i dun know how to describe the feeling but... in my own words, i have a very bitter feeling just behind my nose... i dun know... not too good about describing how sick i feel "behind my nose".... khekhehe... fuck evrything....

and worse still, the $3.50 medicine i got from the school doctor made my tongue so bitter... i can literally taste my own tongue... like a tongue taste itself... khekhe... now im imaginating a self french kiss... a self tongue-on-tongue experience...

oh fuck.... what a fucking sick thought... bloody fuck... this, medicine is really making me fucktup... need to sleep...

Im feelling happy...

I dun know why.... im just feeling damn fucking happy... khekheke...

maybe it was the training we had... its been so long since i last work out.. i dun know.. i cant remember when it was... but what the fucking heck man... there were so many new members... so happy... so semangat you know... khekhek... i cant wait to built the team into a powerhouse...

i can imagine us running together on the track... haha... now there will at least be more of us... yeah...

i think all that sweating it out made me happier ah... i wasnt tired... but i think all that panting from the girl behind me made me tired... khekhe... can you believe that hearing ppl that are tired, will actually make you tired... khkehke... whatever lah eh...

anyway... let me try to research why i feel happy.... oh, i studied alot today... till i got saturated... all that kinematics and material shit... had a good workout... $$$ collection for uniforms was a breeze... ok lah hats about it lah... oh yah... and i think im getting better form this virus fuck... yeah... 2 days of wearing specs and cap... i feel so ugly... haiyah...

what to do.. the doctor said 5 days of no contacts... so must follow lor... khekhke... 2moro anothr day of busy shits... this chairman thing is really making me all busy... haiyah like what the uncle of SPIDERMAN said " with great strength, comes great responsibilities" hkehkehke what strength???

Illegal VCD

I simply cant believe it!!!... my father thinks im doing some illegal shit... maybe selling VCDs... come on dad!!! give me a break!!!

this is what happened:

Im trying to sell my spare phone.. since i've already got my engage... so i put it on yahoo auctions... someone bidded $46 for it... Sharon's the name...

and so, we are suppose to meet up today to deal... and she offered to meet me under my block... how nice of her( a middle aged baker)... so i went down with the handphone box... the phone, manual and charger in it....

now my father was suspicious.... he thinks its a box full of VCD... he just cannot believe that i can sell a 2nd hand phone to others... come on lah... i already stated that the phone is 2nd hand and without warranty... and she still agrees... haiyah... what old ppl mentality...

i feel so accused... not that i do sumthing illegal... like sell drugs or cigs... but i know what i am doing here... pls man... dun my family treat me like a fucking21 year old... i really apreciate their concern and protectiveness... but i really need space to grow... if not, i will forever be the small boy of the family... i think i have to leave home... maybe that will force them to leave some sapce for me...

what an argument i had with Father...haiyah...

sometimes i just have to fight for my rights... not rights, more of what is the truth... instead of letting him believe his imagination... now i am Mr Druglord who will go to jail for selling a 2nd Hand phone on Yahoo auction...

i really cant believe this is hapening...

not that i had helped him sell some stuffs too... why did he question me so much now... is it the box that he thinks is full of illegal VCDs... which in reality is actually my phone with charger... damn lah...

now he doesnt talk to me... let him simmer for awhile... and i shall keep my distance... i know that what i said was true... and that he is really imaginating... but never once did i raise up my voice... haiyah... parents and their EGO... let them be... that are the forces of nature... i will one day be a parent too... maybe then, would i understand the feelings he's going through...

Hmph...

and im down with an eye virus... fuck...

Finally, a pic of what we felt of our trip... BEST!!!!  

this photo illustrates how fast we were travelling... i felt so BACK TO THE FUTURE... like we're travelling back to SG... to a place of our time...  

the tickets... we paid only RM30... i dont know where that other RM6.70 came from... the seats are even bigger... and more comfy...a good deal for RM30...  

Our Bus to home... costedus rm30.. cos it was the last bus.. at 0030hrs... and this bus really was speeding... so fast... so so fast...  

we stayed until most shops closed... kehkhe... talk about being kiasu... haha... loook at all the rubbish here... i had to take this pic... so that i will appreciate the cleanliness of our place.. and abg izz is still looking at the watches.. even though the lady was closing shop...  

we took off our pants to try on the jeans... no changing rooms... thankfully i had nice boxers on... and the ladies there we giving me weird looks.. hahha... who cares... shopping is our main priority... not our ego... khekhekhee...  

so we bough shoes... 3 pairs in total... My new adidas shoes.. haha.. we had a tough time trying to decide which shoes to buy... so many choices... great deal... this shoes cost RM70 plus i think...  

We made friends with a skinhead Burger Ramly vendor... his burgers were fantastic... we bought 3 each... yum yum... members beb...  

TADA!!!! we're finally here... the so much anticipated Petaling street.. this place was the pinnacle of our trip... shopping here we come!!!  

Finally we're in KL.. I find this pic very deep... thats me... and the light from the Bus interchange... we were at some back alley... taking a time out from all that bargaining with the bus ticket sellers... i feel that the pic illustrated the moment that we stopped from all our hard time getting the tickets...  

our decent meal at Yong Peng...  

and yong peng had this stall that sold pirated Winney the Pooh... he looked so stoopid in that plastic wrapping... hehehe.... this pillows reminds me of ayer Hitam... haha.. 

our stopover at Yong Peng... haha... our uncle was always telling us about the chinese kid from yong peng that he killed with his elbow... hahha... and here we are at the place itself... we were so suprised that we were actually at yong peng... we were also looking for kids to kill with our elbow... pic of my elbow too..  

our bus tics to KL... evrything was fully booked... wow...and the bus was really punctual.. they left on the dot at 1430hrs...  

thats the seat... i felt like im in an aeroplane... haha... we sat together... the seat im sitting at, is not mine... just for photographic purposes...  

Thats the company that trasported us to Pudu Raya Interchange at KL... haha... ratings for this company is 7/10.. the trip is so full of stops... its took us 5 hours to reach KL... stops here lah, stops there lah... haiyah... our time was precious... but the seats are huge!!!!  

Our 1st Pic... in the 170 bus on the way to Larkin Interchange... we were so excited... hahha... we're going on a super short trip to KL... by BUS... so fun... and we wont know if there are buses there that still have seats to SG.. until we reached there...haha.. we loved that feeling... 

the Cheap Thrill Trip

these are the bare facts....

total time taken: 18 hours (1230 hrs till 0630hrs)

Total disance traveled: more than 600km (SG - KL - SG)

Total amount spent: SGD 200 max

total burger Ramly bought: 3 each (beef special)

friends made: 4 (abg skinhead the Burger peddler, Aki the shoe comedian, Abg Azmi the malaysian idol reject and some other guy who smokes Malboro Lights, i cant remeber his name, khekhe)

Things bought: 1 pair of adidas skate shoes, 2 levi's, 1 docker's, 5 t-shirts, 1 bag, 1 return ticket to SG.

Having a thrilling time going overseas with no backup plans..... Price: Priceless

i am so sleepy today... khekhekhe... but i had one hell of a scred when there was no more bus tickets to SG last night initially... hkhekekhe... thats what we wanted to xperience... but we did manage to get home anyway... YAHOOO.....

and i miss my Beautiful badly....

Struggles....

hmph.... i feel like im strangled by my education now... all the studying is now finally going to start... whether i like it or not...

the week was not too bad... i didnt have time to blog and all... the welcome tea was certainly a success... i was so happy and all of us felt that it was such a heavy burden of our shoulders.... what a response from the freshies... yeah!!!

i had such a good time talking and talking and talking plus getting fat and all on wednesday.... hahah... it was a devilish crusine of pizza and swensens... yum yum.... Triple laza super suprem with 8 sweet and spicy drumlets with Beautiful.... a topless 5 at swensens... Chocolate freckles, chocolate chip, peanut bettercup, sticky chewy chocolate and lastly cookies and cream... yum yum oh yum yum... i was so hyper active eating all that... hehehah... and after all that, i still can be treated by miss pres at swensens JP after the sports meeting... khekhhee... same topless 5 with same flavours... yum yum...

now... im at home... my parents away at kelantan... their honeymoon,,, trying to run away from everything... kikiki... let them be marn... i'll be ok here, parents...

had a good time last night with the guys... we talked about the EID project thing at the end of yr 2... mamak had some idea, i had too... contributed by Beautiful.... and we all met up at Simpang... for our meal... yes... this is uni life... all tutorials done and we all studied hard... time to relax... its the fucking weekend... yahoo...

anyway... i wore blazer to school, with a t-shirt on and jeans and sneakers... is it too much for NTU??? fuckers... everyone is asking me why i wear that?? i mean, whats wrong with fashion... i bet they've not seen the catwalks lately... single breasted 3 button blazers are in lah FUCKERS.. kkheheke... and i was also carry my bag... the type that you hang on your shoulder... and super huge version of a handbag... and this Fucker said it look faggot-y... hahah... what the flying fuck... i have nothing to prove to the whole whether im macho or a faggot... such an amazement that this kind of fuckers still exist now.. i thought they belong only to the yuppies stage... like you have everything to prove to the whole... khekhe... whatever Ivan...

i had the car with me today... and i was bored... khekhe... had 2 hostages sitting behind when i did my drive-napping (brudder of kidNAPPING)... hahaha... woodlands to sembawang took 0.5hour... kikiki... i drove and drove... to and empty carpark with L driver learing to park... to senoko incinerators... and the senoko fish port... khekheke... and yes, admiralty west prison... hahaha... that place brings back memories...

(not that i spent time IN the prison) more of within the compounds... one of the skidding lessons was there... for my driving permit... haha... i had such a fun time skidding then... but that was 2 years ago marn... long story... long ago...

i think i like to think about what ppl will think... part of it is imagination... and the oother part is just to keep check my EQ... haha... its fun to think of reactions of ppl... haha.. kind of gives me contingency plans... for use later on when such situation do occur...

haiyah... im so full of ideas but they disappear b4 i can grab hold of them... come back to me pls.... i want you back, ideas!!!! i hope the come to me like how the frozen pieces of T2000 melts and gather together to form back T2000... haha... what a great but bullshit show... but i still love it... haiyah... anytinglah... im so lost in my labarinth ideas in my brain... like the neurons are playing switch there... HEY NEURONS!!! pls tidy up... so i wouldnt need to sort my thinking anymore....

or maybe what i need is a sexy and beautiful secretary... khekheh... ok b4 my tembamz gets all jealous, maybe i should send that thought in to the recycle bin...

Yuzir called Shaqilah stoopid... everyone heard that... as their teacher in tuition, i cant let that go away unscathed... so i made him shout "I am Stoopid!!" then i gave my my marker and told him to write on the board "Yuzir is Stoopid" 20 times... hahha... we all had such a good laugh during that time... so fucking funny.. and i made him shout what he wrote down 5 times... that will teach him a lesson not to call others stoopid... kikiki...

going KL 2moro... SG - KL - SG within 18 hours... Yahoo... its going to be such a thrill.. and considering that the returns tics will be bought there itself... haha... its so fun... i like the thrill of not knowing whether i can or cannot do it... khekhee... and the ultimate thrill is that i dont have a Plan B... if plan A fails, then we're doomed... khekhekhe... yeah... so fun...

chow... gotto sleep...

went though my stuffs... fund this really old school pic of me... hahaha... i had such a good laugh, laughing at myself.... i think i look so cute... like a " waiting to be beaten up" kind of cute... i was sec 2 then... my G.I. haircut... and my chubby cheeks... hahaha... and yes, i did go on an umrah... in 1996... khekehe... still laughing at this pic... 

My fuctup messy room... so fucking messy right... my cousin on my bed playing my engage... my bed with no bedsheet... my stuffs all over the floor... CLEARING THE ROOM WHAT!!! the room must be messy first before it can be tidied.... 

another choreograph-ed move by us... Farah was so action that she was so over-doing the fall that she was suppose to execute... i was on the floor.. doing a sweep... renee is so obviously smiling... she must be thinking "stoopid fools"... khekhekhe... 

The recruitment fair we had on 25th July 2005... look at Farah's pose... so fierce looking... unlike her postures during the IVP... cocky but stylish... i was just doing my usual moves.. renee looks on... khekhe... like a SO-Chai wasit... khekhe...