cheesy and yet sophisticated... how true... 

i can really see my chubby cheeks... oh man... now im convinced that im fat... no more Ramlee burgers double patties... Too much love in those... that they make me chubby... 

aida... this is my red hair... not too loud... but subtle enough... busy observing my Ramlee burger cooked with love... 

so im getting fatter... khekkhe
syahid said i got the works... but in the mrt, i was told that i look chubbier already...
and so now im back to watching my weight again..
weight watching again...
like a yoyo...

tembamz didnt like me fat either...
haiyah... i also need to look good lah kan...

and so today, i vow to run all seven days of the week...
every morning...
either i run for 40 mins non-stop at random route around yishun park...
or i sprint up the 200m killer slope 8 times...
hmmm...

i was taking my notes from my crumpler in the mrt...
so bending over, i glanced at this lady's legs...
and wow, what a sight to ponder abt...
G-R-O-S-S....
there was hair...
not little...
but many...
and they were thick like luxuriant undergrowth...
it wasnt even flat on the skin...
i was like a man's leg hair...
i think i have a sort of hair fetish...
i like hair-LESSness...

things to do 2moro...
1) run and curse that bloody 200m steep slope..
2) clear my table
3) prepared my notes
4) enjoy my date with Tembamz..
5) eat less (and also for the rest of the week)
6) Shave.. (its Friday, shaving day)

After spending a good ol half hour eating alone while pondering..
I think i know why im afraid of being alone...

partially maybe its because of insecurity..
that i will turn out to the loser with no friends...
kind of the secondary school feeling that never go away..
you know, the afraid to be waiting for the bus alone... khekhe..
thankfully now, im no longer THAT insecure...

And also another reason is that my family will never let me be alone...
everything also do together..
no such thing as a lonely meal, lonely trip to doctor,
lonely weekend...
there's always something to do and to do together...
Yeah...

so best... i actually unravel my mystery...
and i will be back after another meal alone to ponder abt other weird things abt myself...

I Miss Tembamz...
Period...

Did so much walking and admin stuffs today...
But overall such a happy day...
i settled my timetable...
will be taking 8 modules next sem... total 26 Academic Units...
All core modules... no electives...
so i will have an easier time in Yr 4...

i was also told by the school that my results will be out by next week...
so best... finally, im going to be normal like everyone else..
khekheke... i hope my results will a-ok...

had a tough training...
but thankfully, i didnt need to do the toughest part...
1.2km in 5mins...
7 sets of 4x10m shuttle run...
and lots of drills...
i must say... they better turn out like animals...
if not i will be the Bi-Na-Tang... khekhe...
i was so tired from the shuttle run...
can even do addition of 2.5+2+3+2.5...
the mama at canteen 2 had to do the math for me...
well, i have my "bodoh" days too ok...

i have not been studying my "favourite" module lately..
It has been too Interesting... khekhe...
ok ok...
2moro i will dedicate the whole day to Electricity and the MOdern Society...
i will also have lots of typing games every 45mins... so i will not be bored...
must keep myself motivated...
im looking forward to staying in a single room...
but this time round i really need to study consistently and like hell...

must score well...
must score well...
must score well...

i have a date on saturday( with tembamz of course)
dont know where to go...

brazil vs ghana...
comments:
ghana was threatening in the first half...
brazil did lots of counter-attacks...
2 goals are a result of poor offside judgement...
poor ghana...
i like to support the underdogs...
cos everyone supports the favourites...
more of the unexpected action lah...
if not, no fun...

i think im a sadist...
like to see people suffer but trying their best and giving their all...
kind of make me proud...
go NTU.. We Want SOme MOre.. We want Some More...

emotions came thumping back

i went to watch the Silat NAtionals just now..

and everytime i watch a match, my heart will go thump thump thump...

its like i can feel myself being the one fighting in that ring itself...

the one breathing hard, thinking abt the next move and anticipating the opponent's moves..

so wow right? so best...

i guess i like being right in the heart of the action..
i hate being in the support side...
i want to be the the one fighting...
not the one at the sideline..
maybe its because i feel i have so much more to offer..
maybe i still have too much young blood...
the raging young blood that does not recognise its time to tone down..
what the fuck... what am i saying..
i feel old...

anyway, i have some kind of skin rash...
some mutated form of local swollen skin with clearly defined borders..
i dun know what is the cause..
if its hygeine, then i settled that already..
vacumned the bed pillows room.. claered my table...
if its the food, ive not been eating anything unusual latey...
and yet these things just appear out of nowhere..
oh man..
i feel like a freak...

2 week's time i will be leading NTU for IVP..
NTU, NTU, We Want Some More, We Want Some MOre..
IM proud of the discipline in NTU...
afterall, we're all trained to be "Bi-na-tang"....

Factors that make a guy horny?
a) been exercising lately
b) feeling bored
c) missing the girlfriend
d) just appreciating what nature had already instilled in us..
e) Reaching the Sexual peak (20+ for men)

just some reasons i thought of during my 1.5hrs bus ride this evening...

Oh im such a busy man...

Tuition at ten...
(8th lesson already, but they didnt give me $$$... how like that.. they said they are waiting for the agent to call)

Met Syaiful at 1230..
friday prayers...
Didnt get to eat soto babat with Amirul.. damn.. sorry for making you feel lonely bro...
ate at TAco Bells...
so best...
walked around at Penin...
liked the $50 puma sneakers...
met the Mendaki tuition members...
Ate at Sakura international...
and now finally, im home..

a 10am-11pm day...

but i enjoyed the day!!!
managed to catch up with friends..

anyway...
Nasir pulled out... so sad... He could leave a frightening impression to others..
Tembamz will be starting work next week.. i hope she copes well..
i didnt gain weight... ate alot.. so what the heck..

Alone... till school reopens at least..

yes yes oh yes...

i am alone... A-L-O-N-E...
i hate being alone... but what to do...
here i am alone...
ate MacDonalds alone...
sitting in the library alone...
i am such a strong person...
facing my fear head on...
grabbing it by the horns...

i manage to squeeze into the Electricity and Modern Society module..
so best..(like real)..
they are like foreign people to me...
everyone there could tell that i was not one of them(the electrical and electronics engineers)..
so what the FUCK am i doing there???
welll there were only 4 modules with vacancies...
and the rest of them sounded way way out of the world...
open software systems... gates... whatever lah...

i just came back from KL and GEnting... so best...
at last i get to talk and see the puff of moisture from my mouth...
heheh...
didnt get to go to the casino though...
cos i forgot to bring my passport...
and i was already dreaming what to treat my friends with thw $$$ that i would win...
kehkheke... talk abt over-ambitious...

so now i have 1 hour to kill...
i guess i will update my friendster account...
been like months since i touched friendster...

and soon i will be back listening to lectures on the distribution of electricity to consumer...
oh wow... how more enthusiastic can i be....

(for Tembamz only)
I had a great day yesterday...
Thank you for the wonderful time we spent together...
I love you sweedie...

the sleepos in the Suzuki APV... 

another family pic...  

burger Ramlee... cooked with love... the way i've always liked it... i ate a burger ramlee double patty... wow wow wee... 

the ppl who stayed at room 15-06... my parents are not in the picture.. cos they already left (they took the bus home, not enough space)... another family is at another room 14-01... 

the ride i took at Genting... costed me RM10... but well worth it.. and we shouted the hell out of our lungs.. kind of attracted a crowd after our ride... the workers there told us to shout louder next time so more ppl will be attracted to the ride... 

the salon at PNB Darby... my cousin did my hair for me... and the toilet was huge...  

the all time favourite... Abg Boh at Petaling St... his Ramlee(s) were so delicious... i cant remember how many we bought... definitely more than 10... gua caya sama lu lah abg skin... 

my cousins... outside KLCC... we had a hard time getting this angle.. cos the ladies next to us refused to help us take a photo for us... they think we want to take their photos...  

the VW Golf GTI... maybe not my first car.. not not even my second car... but it will be my car one day... Red and 3 doored...  

how we looked in sept 2005.. i was so slim and fit...  

sickeningly cute... i dont know how i got this smile in the first place... bleagh... kehkhe..  

me and tembamz... at suntec BK... i was persuading her to go buy the digicam... she finally bought it...  

middle aged malay guy...
tattoo on the neck...
i was queueing up to withdraw money... (aniway its SGD100=RM229)
he looked at me in the eye...
asked me for a favour...
took out his wallet (a worn out versace) showed me the money compartment...
he got only $10... he said he need $5 more to buy EZ link...
hmmm... i kind of dont know how much EZ link cost now...
but he was bold to ask me for $5 just like that...
must be my new crumpler that projects the "i got money to lend you, if you ask nicely enough" look...

but then again i was just wearing slippers... dont know lah...
i was amuse by his bold move.. and i gave him everything i've got... about $1 plus in coins...

whatever brudder!!!!

anyway, i went to school to change my status from "on leave" to "current"...
and i even manage to take the coming special sem... Yeah...
now i only have 2 extra module to clear in 2 years...
a big thank you for the really really helpful ladies at level 1 student Admin Services...
they let me take the module cos i am a special case...
yahoo... but the modules with vacancies are crap lah...
oh well no luxury to be choosy now...
i took "electricity and society"
yum yum right?! hkehkehkhe

i still dont know my results for my Jawi, Lab and Studies in Malay Music...
they said i didnt even passed the audition...
come on lah... I bloody hell submitted all the assignments and took their tests...
i hope the get to the bottom of this...

i'll be off to KL 2moro...
I think i'll dye my hair during this trip...
kkhekhe... lets try red.. or mahogany...
and cant wait to sneak into the casino at Genting...
Time to get rich guys!!! kekhekhe...

im going to miss Tembamz...
you go and eat alot ok...
i want to see the list of things you ate while im gone..
and go and bury yourself in the loads of textbooks...
hehehe... do all these while i enjoy myself in KL... khekhe
and of course i'll be missing you when im there..
i miss you now already...

got a refreshing haircut just now.. i cant remember when was my last haircut...
but its getting unruly already... so i went under the scissors... "snips snip"
short and layered...

view from my room... 

the list of participants and their respective nicknames... Silat training camp... we ran and trained like we never had... khekhekhe... well they are still my friends now... just that they hate me during time training... 

our booth.. the tallest one in the whole competition... 7 bamboo poles were used... the car with the dynamite underneath it... (ala hard rock) 

fooling around with the car we built.. iMob was our product's name.. (iMobiliser).. kotak and his sickening sweet smile... oh pls boy... show me that you can have more expressions that just that smile.. khekhekhe.. amirul is really enjoying posing at the back of the car... 

our whole group... you guys are such a devouted bunch of ppl.. we didnt win top 3 but we all won friendship amongst us... im proud of how we worked together...  

some self pics while i was sitting on the floor while waiting for the results... not bad eh? khekhe... so i dun know if i look better in shirt and tie or dirty overalls... oh... the two sides(Attire) of engineering... 

i cant stand the smile on my face... like so trying to action cute... i think i would have beaten myself up if i wasnt me... 

the presenters... me and yongxin... plus our mascot... mr mantainence... he's such a celeb now... girls asked whether they can take photos with him... hahah... u go Mr Mantainence... 

our completed prototype... a 1:5 scaled down model... look at the spikes... so menacing... 

our trusted self taught electrician... Fahmi mamak...