emotions came thumping back

i went to watch the Silat NAtionals just now..

and everytime i watch a match, my heart will go thump thump thump...

its like i can feel myself being the one fighting in that ring itself...

the one breathing hard, thinking abt the next move and anticipating the opponent's moves..

so wow right? so best...

i guess i like being right in the heart of the action..
i hate being in the support side...
i want to be the the one fighting...
not the one at the sideline..
maybe its because i feel i have so much more to offer..
maybe i still have too much young blood...
the raging young blood that does not recognise its time to tone down..
what the fuck... what am i saying..
i feel old...

anyway, i have some kind of skin rash...
some mutated form of local swollen skin with clearly defined borders..
i dun know what is the cause..
if its hygeine, then i settled that already..
vacumned the bed pillows room.. claered my table...
if its the food, ive not been eating anything unusual latey...
and yet these things just appear out of nowhere..
oh man..
i feel like a freak...

2 week's time i will be leading NTU for IVP..
NTU, NTU, We Want Some More, We Want Some MOre..
IM proud of the discipline in NTU...
afterall, we're all trained to be "Bi-na-tang"....

Factors that make a guy horny?
a) been exercising lately
b) feeling bored
c) missing the girlfriend
d) just appreciating what nature had already instilled in us..
e) Reaching the Sexual peak (20+ for men)

just some reasons i thought of during my 1.5hrs bus ride this evening...