I had such a great time last night... buffet dinner with the fuchun tutors... so best... ate like a pig as usual... yum yum... salmon, lamb, young corns, pizza, sushi.... haha... i didnt help that i was wearing a tight fit top... haha... wrong day to wear that top... i should have worn that the day ofter training.. when i feel that my body is most "kao"... haha... self proclaimed lah eh... haha... najib said i looked sexy... haha.. what a compliment coming from a guy... tight Vneck top... haha...

best of all i had suprise outing after the buffet... haha... and all the excuses and cover-ups will eventually be out of the bag... haha... *evil smile*.... cant wait to go for training later...

kurma, oreos and banana walnut gardenia bread... that will be break fast...
anything more, and i will vomit... haha...

Me and Alfiano Capone getting all comfy with the Simpsons... hehe...

Bought a new camera... Panasonic lumix TZ-1... not too bad... took this pic after training... i need to work out more... the biceps are not clearly defined.. and look at the deltoids... i want them round... cellulite galore...

been some time since i blogged... i was at the lowest point in my life back then.. it had been a difficult phase... but life needs to go on... i cant be stuck in that depressed state all my life... i want to live my life, look forward to other things in life and i want to focus on my studies.. my family and friends had done all they could... but i figured, to start picking up my pieces, it needs to start from within... i had kept quiet for so long... pondering how i could have improved myself better.. i looked for my flaws... i think abt how i be a better person... a better partner... and ultimately, possess the best qualities of a husband and father...

one thing i've learnt is that communication is the key to a happy and fulfilling relationship.. i see it as one of my flaws... maybe i was too comfortable in the relationship... or maybe i was getting complacent... but then again... i was very sure, i tried everything to make the relationship work..

haha... i cant believe all these could actually happen to me... i was really humbled... by God and His ways...

Lesson : in life, you never see the finished product. life itself is the ongoing process... my pursue for a degree, my pursue for a job, my pursue for a family.... at anytime in life, we work for something...

Thankfully, things are starting to get better now... how low should i go? I had found the rhythm to study again... my grades had suffered... but im not going to let these matters affect my future again...

love hurts... but yeah, worrying abt the past does not make me feel any better right... i look forward now... looking back gives me nothing but depression... i am more in control of myself and my feelings... i had been strong in facing my problems... i deserve to lead a better life...

pouring my heart out...