i think i should just forgive and forget... these things happen for a reason... and for now, i think im going into a relationship "fasting"... you know like, fasting in the fasting month... but now im fasting in terms of relationships...

i feel insecure and i truly need to search the remedy... like why do i feel this way... was it the relationship that my parents had... was it because i see loyalty as a necessity... or was it that i was hurt before... i need to realease myself from all these emotional baggage... been reading a really good book from a close friend... "Are you the one for me?"... very enlightening indeed...

i start to realise where i've gone wrong in the past... and i seek to correct it all... make myself a better person...

the prospect of getting attached in engineering is bleak... haha... so many dicks in that engineering workforce... and im just going to end up as one of them... haha.. as quoted by a friend "once you go engineering and work, thats it... no chance of meeting girls or potential partners... its just dicks, dicks and more dicks..." hahah.. oh well...

anyway, i really hope ST Aero is looking through my resume now... pls pls pls... i can be an asset to your company!!! hmmm... next stop, SIA trainee station manager... got to do some serious job hunting now... at least for me lah...