asthma and "nice" colleague

many thanks that i had cupcake by my side... she had been there giving me encouraging words... the times when i was breathless at the polyclinic... I really felt that i was going to die.. the time when the doctor said that now i have asthma... the time when i broke down, thinking why i had so much defects... all these happened within the past 4 days... it had been an emotional roller coaster... cupcake was there for me.. what she said was true, if we question what God had given us, it shows that we did not Redha enough... thank you dear for making me realise how i didnt thank God enough for the other things that He had blessed me with..

there are many theories why i got asthma now (after a 20 yrs absence):
1) work environment. Jurong Island air is not of the best quality and benzene is a carcinogen. I dun know if it not used to the chemicals or that i am so sickly
2) over exhaustion. I went out everyday of the week after work and even weekends.. even night shifts cant pry me away from having a good time after 4 hours of sleep...
3) relapse of asthma... asthma may return when we reach adulthood..

now, im inhaler dependent... but i shall still be thankful that i have a complete set of body and whats most important is that my heart is still intact... that my heart can connect with others and that i can feel the emotions that a human naturally feels...

i just got to know of a really interesting story that ended in a tragedy... go figure it out and it sounds familiar..

- deleted segment-

what a tragedy... points to ponder and possibly chicken soup for the soul...