My fuctup Kinematics exam today

Fucking hell...

i've always hated open book exams... there are all fuctup... all of them... it gives us the false sense of security that we have all the notes and books with us... so "just in case" we forget anything, we can always retrieve it...

all that fuctup sense of shitty security... my exam today was a bloody hell heart attack... thankfully i attempted the last question first... out of four questions, i could do only 2... out of hundred marks, i couldnt do 60 of it... i just hope evryone finds it equally as hard so that the bloody bell shape curve will be shifted... and that i can at least pass... fucking hell...

i was really breaking down for this paper... so much to study... so little time.. and i actually started studying 1 fucking month b4 the exams.. fuctup... i dun know whats wrong... maybe its my study technique... maybe its my retention power... maybe im just too fuctup...

i have Materials and Manufacturing on fri... bloody hell.. i've really got high hopes for this paper... i need my A from somewhere... but its all memory work... i've really got to struggle... now... i must...

fuck lah... im horny, im desperate, im afraid, im scared, im grateful, im sore, im confused, im angry, im cranky, im tired, im drained, im depressed, im UNDER-ACHIEVING....

thanks yash for the comment... i just set targets for myself... but i do get depressed if i can achieve it... but sometime i do.. i dun know..

anyway, i was abit too carried away eh for the pres shit... khekhekhe... cahirman pun chairman lah... gua tak pasal...


i had a chat with BOYAN D'CAkes...
" you ah Wan, the course with the highest workload is Medicine.
You know what is the second most demanding course?!
ENGINEERING! "

he didnt state that... his MO did... haiyah..

im beginning to question my relevance to the engineering world in the future... maybe PE is more like... whatever lah eh...

got to study now... i memorised 54 pages of 6 slides each this afternoon... 4 hours... many more thousand slides to go...

fuck...